So, I have never been diagnosed by a doctor, but if you hang around me for about 2.5 seconds you will notice some
OCD tendencies. Yes, I like things to be very organized and it's even better when they are clean, BUT...I also like clothes and linens folded a certain way, I like my desk items to be nicely in line with the edge of my desk, I have a thing with angles, I like to keep my email inbox and trash folder empty, I like all the light switches on a panel to be flipped the same direction, and the list of my weird obsessions goes on and on...
About a year ago, I was over it!!! Not really over it. I had the desires to do all of these things (and more), but I was SO tired of feeling like things had to be a certain way. Don't get me wrong, I love having my life together and I love being efficient because of my orderliness, but sometimes I wanted it to be
ok if I left school with paper on my desk and emails in my inbox. So...I shared all of this with my doctor and he wrote me a little prescription :) I refer to my little pill as my "keep me calm medicine". It really started to kick in about 6 months later and I feel like a completely different person (and most people around me can tell a difference...now, I am by NO MEANS a SLOB nor have I become unorganized, or have I lost the desire to be organized, but I am a ton calmer).
Well, I ran out Thursday evening...by this morning (when the pharmacy opened back up) my head was swimming and I have been in a fog for the better portion of the day. To say I have been on EDGE tonight is the understatement of the year. I am waiting for my medicine to kick back in and in the meantime I am frantically running all over the house obsessing over everything. I am resisting the urge, with all my might, to climb into the attic and clean it out TONIGHT!!!!
At this point, I think I better just go to bed because I am driving myself crazy and I am pretty sure I am doing the same thing to my hubby (and I have been less then patient with the kiddos tonight). So, I am hoping to feel back to normal (my new normal) tomorrow...otherwise I am going into the attic...